Oh Baby Flower

See how cute is this baby! Oh no, she is NOT my baby. She is hubby's niece ( one of the twins ). She is definitely the attraction in the family now being so chubby chub chub and bubbly. But the thing with her is she is really a 'sang pou' baby (baby whom is really afraid of strangers so to speak).

And I am the one she is afraid of now for everytime she sees me, she will start sobbing away if not crying out loud. Oh my God! This is my worst encounter with any babies by far!

It is ok at the beginning because she just wanted the Ah Ma (nanny) and the mother and strictly NO ONE else. Later, one by one of the family members are added to her list of 'ok, u may touch and play with me now'. And I am the last and yet to be accepted by her!

With the constant teasing from hubby especially, I am kind up giving up to go anywhere near her so that I don't have to endure all the cynical words from hubby which really annoyed me..

'I think 'kim-kim' got horns on her head ah! Y r u always crying when u see her?'
'I think 'kim-kim' is too 'dark' la, that is why u don't like her hor!' ~ this really brought tears to my eyes! *sob sob*
'aiya, 'kim-kim' too ugly already la hor!'

etc etc...urghh.....

It is just unbearable with all these comments and I noticed I started avoiding her if possible (sad, because I like to take pictures of her more as nobody else does in the house!). My heart started to pump faster and hands get sweaty whenever I see her now! hahaha! So funny but it is true. I read somewhere in the paper that babies are sensitive creatures, probably she can sense that I am nervous and also rejecting her in some ways or other thanks to my beloved hubby!:P)

I think that contributed to me rejecting to have baby girl. What if she is tan like me, will the family tease her and can she take it cos she had snow white-complexion cousions?

一白遮三丑 ( chinese proverbs : fairness shall cover ugliness, or we shall so translate it as 'being fair is a plus point in judging beauties') that is the fact, it is true - Aha! Don't lie and tell me it is not! Praises always go like this : 'oh, look at her/him, so fair and sweet!' and not 'oh look at her/him, so 'dark' and pretty!' ~~pengsan! Nevertheless, there will always be consoling and comforting phrases which goes : oh, she is hitam manis. oh she is tan BUT ok, quite pretty la hor! oh, she is tan BUT she looks sunny and sexy...urghhh, since when I wanna be sexy?

So, to those with tan complexion, just be strong cause you are definitely not alone! ;) Cheers! Ha!